I want to blow my head off every day. I should probably get addicted to painkillers and overdose on opiates to fix my mental issues.

You know, they say the brain doesn't feel pain, but when you've had trauma, painkillers can make all of that trauma pain disappear. Or, at least, that was how it was in my case. I could sit down and watch a movie and immerse myself in it. I can't do that with the amount of pain I feel daily.

I wish somebody would love me. My best friends imprisoned me, and I haven't been the same—doom on Adderall.

The love of my life ditched me for somebody with a name that tells me that the injustices she went through kept her up at night. She did this through the metaphor of sex, which makes me uncomfortable because it's like watching somebody fuck your partner while they are telling you that the injustices you've been through keep them up at night.

I hope they divorce.