To Robynn
Dearly beloved, adored, cherished, worshiped and understood,
this world is not for the weak, yet it is the weak who have the most to teach us. They are the ones who see the vanity of living a life unfulfilled, refuse to accept the mediocre as a standard, refuse to live a socially accepted version of a "normal" existence and it is they who suffer the most for it. Seeing the possibility and potential instead of the bad and the ugly in people is a divine blessing and a burdensome curse.
For it is the weak who are the strongest, their damaged souls carrying the most wisdom and knowledge, they wear the scars on their hearts as a badge of honor and it is the foolish who perceive them as lost, confused and dumb, but it is they who fail to see the true beauty in these creatures.
You have allowed me to look into your soul, well aware of your past and the scars it left, but you still trusted me enough with the truth inside you, hoping and praying i would not run away as soon as I saw the being inside. Instead of running, I fell in love; because where you saw darkness, I saw the light, where you saw weakness I saw strength and deep inside, where you thought all was broken, I saw the light of all humanity.
Gratitude is nothing but a word, 9 letters, and I can't help but feel it fails to express the full amount of this emotion I feel...what you have done for me is the utmost a human can do for another human being. If everyone before misunderstood you, denied you the opportunity of being yourself or even tried convincing you that you were wrong, please let me be the one to tell you that there is nothing wrong with you and nothing wrong with being exactly who you are!
There's an angel inside you, chained by the fools of the world, the strong who are the weak and the found who are the lost. You've been lead to believe throughout your life that their ways are the correct ones, the normal and balanced ones, when in your heart you always knew that there was something big missing all the time. People gave the missing bit different names throughout history, they worshiped it and praised it above all else in human existence, because it justified all the pain we feel.
Because when love comes, it strips you of all your armor and heals all which is bruised. In its presence you collapse and become completely vulnerable, willingly, knowing it will not kill you, but make you stronger. When its true essence embraces your heart, there is no way to break it, other than deny it and denying it is succumbing to the visions and delusions of the foolish and unwise. All other obstacles are merely pebbles on the road, because nothing can destroy that which is true. The truth needs no army to defend it, it defends itself.
Our ties will not break, because they were created, nourished and nurtured by truth, the undeniable, uncompromising and unrelenting truth. We can be in different places, different countries, continents, planets or universes, nothing would change. All the difficult times and struggles will not separate us, but bring us even closer.
I want you to know and remember this forever; my love for you is ever-lasting, uncompromising and unconditional. You're well-being, health and happiness is above all else to me and always will be, because you mean the world to me. Whatever it takes for you to be happy, we will do, with or without me in the picture. I do not want for you to feel trapped, because with me you are not. But I do solemnly swear that I will not let go of you or leave you if I know you are not happy or fulfilled, I will help you in any way I can, until I see you feel the same thing I feel for you inside of yourself.
My hopes and dreams are clear and I will work for them with you to make them come true. Now all that felt vain has a purpose, because now all that was Nothing has become Something...and that Something is now my Everything.
If there is one thing I want to teach you, it's the thing you are teaching me without trying...I want to teach you that all the love you feel coming from me is already inside you, only now it has been allowed to glow and shine to its full capacity. I want you to learn to love yourself as much as I love you...
For me, this letter is just for you, Robynn, but I'm posting it here for everyone to see, everyone to know that the illusions in which we all live are truly vain, unless they are accompanied with the filling of fulfillment, joy and love. All else is Nothing...don't let that Nothing become Everything you know...
I live for the day when we will be sitting under the apple tree together.
I love you; forever never changes
Dejvid
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