Can't Sleep

[PrttyBrd]

So it is 4:30 in the morning over here, and I still can't sleep. Can't figure out what I'm stressed over either. Very odd. I don't think it's money or Christmas, I mean we all have struggles and you do the best with what you have and move on. This is a deep sense of foreboding. I'm getting very nervous about it actually. Y'see, my hubby works with fireworks. He leaves tomorrow for yet another boat parade. I hate them because there is an awful lot of explosives in a tiny workspace. But usually I'm fine. He is the safest person I know. Even so, due to manufacturing error, he was in an accident last year that scared the crap out of me. He's fine, but I've never been the same. Now, with this very unsettling feeling, I'm almost sick to my stomach. Boy, I can see that I'm going to be very cranky until I get that phone call after the show. I feel bad for my kids having to deal with me. I have two concerts, guitar lessons, and Cub Scout fundraisers this weekend. Unfortunately, I'll be pretty useless until I get that phone call.Holy crap I'm getting nervous! I don't get this way, I don't. If I did, I couldn't live with his job. The man is gone more often than he is home. Sometimes there are four shows in a week. It doesn't bother me. The fact that it is bothering me now is freaking me out more than I can find words for. Yeah, I think I liked it better when I couldn't figure out what it was. Now that I know, I wish I didn't.