Hilary.
And in the room I had coveted for myself she told me point blanco, “I envy you.”
Damnit girl I am so fucking blue, I envy you.
I’ll try my hand at graphic design, I’ll do everything I can to be like you but it’s all wrong baby.
Scrub it, I am not you.
But you hold all the cards and all the men I love love you more.
What am I doing wrong, I swear I try so gawddamned hard and fail flailing rabid like the miserable wretch I am.
I am not you my friend and you never think of me, never speak to me, breaks my heart not to be missed by you.
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