I did wait! For five years I waited... Then I had to say goodbye to you, because I was dying a slow death. But I really waited for another 20 years or so, if truth be told. If you asked me to now, I'm not sure I would wait anymore. I still want you, need you and love you, not the current you, the past you...
After I died, I was given a second chance at life again. It doesn't hurt anymore. In fact, nothing really hurts anymore. I am alone, but not really. You were an enigma to me. You were the devil in the flesh. You were more important to me than my own life or sanity. That is not healthy Kenneth. I am healthier now, I am stronger. It is a battle, but I don't cry all day long anymore.
I can't smell your cologne. I can't taste your skin. I can't hear your voice. I can't see your beautiful face. I can't touch your body. But, I still get a smile on my face when I remember how you made me fall to my knees with a passion inside of me that I had never experienced. I melted and became very ready for you to enter me, sometimes with just the touch of your hand. It didn't matter where you touched me Kenneth, I was yours without any hesitation.
I'm okay now Kenneth, really I am. I don't care enough to ask you how you are, I'm sorry about that. Maybe someday, say 10 years from now? And you said I was an enigma.......
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