i think i have never related more to a fictional character.
i have just recently re-read one of my all time favorite psycological thrillers by steven king "the girl who loved tom gordon"... first having read it at the age of fourteen or so...reading it now i can appreciate it so much more having noticed more details that i missed. when i was younger i was easily scared, and was super cautious when for the first time picking up a novel by stephen king, knowing his reputation as a horror book author. to my great surprise, it was scary but not to the extent that it made me not able to sleep at night. i will never forget the first time reading it, not able to put it down...the second time was the same.
i guess the major analogy this novel holds for me is that the world and my mind are the forest in the novel. the darkness, fear, terror, loneliness and even maddness...are things that i have personally experienced.
what is the most beautiful about this book is how it shows the power of believing in something and some-one to get through these dark periods of life. for trisha it was tom gordon, and the sub-audible. her imagination helping her fight for survival. in my life there have been many tactics such as these to help my own fight for survival, and sanity...and a very crewl world...dark as a forest...with teeth that can bite you at any moment....for me my tom gordon has been radiohead. many times feeling lost and alone...with the only sense of connection to the outside world...or more so...connection to somthing that felt real in this very false world ...was plugging into a song by my favorite band.
these are things that hold Light in the darkness. for not only myself, but for so many others. i will never be able to fully explain how important music is and why.
all i can say...is that radiohead is my hero.
the invisible heroes of my emotional world who have helped me, little do they know, fight battles of self, soul, and mind...and helped me through my own personal darkness.
connecting on that kind of level...is something so magical and so important for human beings. the energy, the love, and the light in these things...these beliefs that we hold....are truely the most powerful.
And in such dark times as these we need the light of that energy that much more!
keep fighting the good fight...with light and love...and all that you are. thank you time and time again Radiohead
Love you always, so much more than you could ever know. You are my Heroes!!
XoXo
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