this is the only 'dream' I had while I was wide awake.
I was working in an art re-production warehouse for this guy named Sid Dickens. I liked the job because I was able to listen to music, meditate, and create. the repetition was perfect for me. it allowed me to practice meditation in a whole new way. I did a lot of experimentation while working. One day I meditated on love and prayed over every tile I painted. I meditated on love so much that I felt high, and a woman actually called into the warehouse and said that she had a spiritual experience from one of the tiles she bought. I don't know if that's funny but I laughed because I just couldn't believe it. Maybe prayers work after all I thought to myself.
There were a lot of fumes in the warehouse and I never wore my mask so I'm sure this daydream was because I might have been partly high. non the less it was the only and clearest vision I have ever had while awake.We had a communal CD player that each staff member would take turns playing what they wanted on it, and while I had this vision I think it was phillip glass that was playing.
what happened in the vision or 'dream' was this:
I was transported to another place completely. I was standing by a body of water of some sort, maybe a lake, and there were trees, weeping willows I think, and the wind was blowing the branches across the water, and the ripples the branches made on the water caused an effect in the water that danced in a beautiful way. it was mesmerizing. i watched the trees and the wind and the water for some time and then this man appeared. this blue man riding on a type of deer. it had antlers, but it was unlike any deer from this world I have ever seen before. it was beautiful and so was he. the deer was painted in beautiful colours. he rode up to me and jumped off his deer ( no saddle or reigns) and he was naked, although he didn't seem to be, and it didn't seem abnormal that he was, and out of a pouch he carried with him, he pulled out this type of flute and started to play this song...I can't explain what he was playing because...it was...everything...it was like he was personifying the wind the trees the flowers the earth...he was speaking for everything...and I listened to this song for some time, not sure how long. then he came up to me and looked me in the eyes...and while I stared into his deep dark eyes...I saw...the entire universe unfold inside them. the entire universe was inside his eyes. it scared me but not in a frightful way, in an awe inspiring way...one that leaves you speechless. something you both understand and do not at the same time. the kind of things that can only make sense in dreams and visions and when you try and explain it to someone it doesn't make sense any longer. he spoke to me with his mind. without speaking.
then he brought out of his pouch a small container. he opened it. inside was some sort of paste. he gently took the paste from the container and started to paint my face. it was both cold and hot. he painted my face and his. first his and then mine. I don't know what I looked like, but he painted his face with white and orange, so he was this beautiful combination of blue orange and white. almost like a tiger. after he painted me he invited me to ride on his deer with him. we rode through fields of beautiful coloured flowers until we reached a waterfall overlooking all the land...it was spectacular to look at. then we watched for a while without speaking...he was explaining many things to me, but we never spoke out loud, he said everything to me with his mind, and it was all about nature and how things work and what things really are...and how to really see and be....and he brought me further. he took me through this land ....all through valleys and mountains...this beautiful land, and we travelled for hours and hours. I saw many many beautiful things. until he took me to this type of house on the top of what I guess was a type of cliff.... but this house was entirely outside. it's hard to explain because nothing like this here exists. only the bedroom was in this type of "cave" but the opening was so large the whole sky was exposed. there was this type of bed and I layed down looking at the stars, because now it was night time...and before I slept he fed me some sort of wine and some sort of food. and before I went to sleep and closed my eyes he told me, 'when you fall asleep here you are awake in your world, when you sleep there you are here with me'....
when I closed my eyes in the blue mans world and fell asleep the vision stopped and I was back in the warehouse painting tiles.
I spent a whole day there with him...but when the vision stopped it was only maybe five minutes.
I tried to "imagine" back to be there and to see so clearly what I had seen..but I couldn't.
...as much as I wanted to go back...I wasn't allowed.
I felt really....confused for the rest of the day, but mainly light headed...and literally high.
I think things like that just happen once...but...who knows....I've never had that vision again......
but I think often of the blue man, my lover that holds the whole universe in his eyes.
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