The girl who cries rape for the bittersweet high of sensual orgasm and the shameless guilt that accompanies the faceless hands that give them.
I hate bicycles like a horse hates a saddle bareback me in the sunset I take no more regrets to my table.
Womanhood can melt perversion in delicious tickles like a feather and whips like a belt too old for the penny juke too young for the ragged blues silence me deadly and staple me to you. Go save your quarters for the grocery store corner where this pony waits sleek in oils for your able hands mister stableman.
I need to wipe the smirk from undermine apple pies incredible this distaste of past mistakes all these bridges ash themselves. Island time cringes bind boredom deadly and in the I the foregone conclusion has grown no wiser still infringing on carpe-made rights, carpetbag me your wife corpselike to the end. I builder banish the riders cut the stirrups and toe up falter cups hinder winter ice blossom the elder dead water me down. Laugh me down. Bring me down below the belt.
I am sold cold emotionless arrangement scar tissue soft tissue remains.
Each handshake and silent leer seeker of nightmares founder of visions no one to rely on but myself cancerous in ill health the world revolves.
I have no taste for power. I have no taste for love. All these thoughts that empower others smother me with distant gloves ‘SHH’ and quiet plenty. Sin against the dogs’ sin against the mailman sin against the laws steeplechase the chapel rebuild the iron walls hopeless shit stained murderess I am no one, no one you want to you know, no.
I am some epitome despicable creature bitchcaw hate mongering crow exhaustion. “I’m sorry” does not seem to encapsulate all the pain I cause in trying to find the truth behind the one eyelash wish last blown. I know eh mindless eh acreage eh bazooka cut my stomach out.
I control but every shoulder kiss I wish was yours. These eyes all around me I wish were yours. All of you around me all the time pent up combustion tearless fearless listless need you need you need you need you need you. Need You. Take me over dismantle me rover keep me rape me eat me, damnit why don’t you need me. Bled me dry. Fed hate the scraps leftover.
I am in debt, indents, retractable prisoner stolid step how I wept. Aged in whine and crept.
I feel like so many pieces of stained glass shattered and hung from bloody casements catch the sunlight prisms in afterthought rainbows. I am no one you know though I suppose as rainbows bow themselves so shall I around this ostrich neck.
I peer at nonexistent silhouettes in cheers to divergent antiquity.
Another lullaby memory that holds onto my hand while I sleep.
To love and to be blameless.
To loose an arrow aimless skyward linear nameless.
I am the carrion contagious of ecstasy and insanity smile in symphonies of paradigm simplicities. Laugh faltering fool. Laugh. To be one with none, to melt the sun, how far flung these petty woes be.
Acidic and worm oils sift along the edges of these dreams, releasing me in lustful harmony humming softly, murmuring ghastly soft lingers of delight introspection and shock at the appealing appellation of mean hardboiled eggheads sincerely remember to relax genuinely pleasure yourself with wax and allow me to introduce to you a new generational gap beyond income tax rats and duck hunting season between elbows raw and high treason Welcome the bellhops to usher the days bow to the waiters, the cooks, and the maids. Salutations at reaching the moon flavored cheese, opiate to drive all these wily men to their knees.
a heartfelt vacancy remains
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