it's hard for me to describe in words most things, but especially the things that seem to mean the most to me.
maybe thats why people like me are called "artists" or whatever the fuck we're called, because we suck at any other form of communication, as in verbal, conversation, linear, whatever connecting with people in the "normal" way.
I'm abstract. I love radiohead so much so because they are just that. abstract. diverse. never-ending. changing always. expanding. challenging not only themselves but the people who listen to their music to seek deeper on multiple levels.
radiohead has been the soundtrack to many important moments in my life, and their music, as a whole, is now a part of me. it's in me. thats the beautiful thing about music, and the artist, and their creation. they share it, you take it, and some how although they made it, you make it yours through how you experience it. music puts reality into real time. or more so. music makes time make sense. somehow?
To be honest though, I haven't stopped listening to the new album King of Limbs since I uploaded it on friday. I've even been listening to it inbetween my breaks at work. I can never seem to get enough of their music...and i mean...this goes for everything they've ever done...and they are the only band that i feel this way for. I'm a little bit embarrassed to admit it, but, thats how it is. Sometimes music is the only thing that gets me through my day. Gets me through this life filled with questions, without such clear cut answers. Gets me through fears, anxieties, and helps me make sense of time, and what i'm processing. music helps me LIVE.
Everytime I listen to every song on the king of limbs i realize, or hear something different. It's amazing. I wish I could describe things better with words, to the depth of what i can feel them...but it's not possible. words are so limitting.
First of all, starting even before i ever uploaded the album onto my mp3 player, I was so excited to get this new CD downloaded that I couldn't sleep all of thursday night. I woke up at 11:30pm thursday, and stayed awake all night until morning, and into friday! There was a full moon, and i just looked out my window and watched the clouds move over it until the sun rose...and i watched the moon fall, as the sun rose, and it was probably one of the most profound nights of my life. The way the light reflected...I'll never see it like that again. Not the same.
I found out that morning that radiohead was surprise releasing the CD on that friday, and I watched the video posted of the Lotus Flower, and it just ....totally impacted me, and especially because i just experienced watching the moon fall, and the sun rise.... it just felt perfect for me to see that video at that moment...and before uploading the Mp3 version of King of Limbs....which i uploaded only later on that day on friday after coming home from work...
What else can i say? I'm a die hard radiohead freak! They've been with me through all of the moments that have been most impacting on my life. They were there with me when i left home at the age of 16, they were with me through those brutal final years of highschool, graduation, and my first travelling/living experiences in a foreign country....not to mention countless times walking, cycling... i've listend to radiohead while i'm happy, sad, going through emotional breakdowns, highs, and lows... man....all of radioheads music has been through it all with me. I have meaning attached to each and every one of their songs...and it evolves and changes...and it's just amazing to me how much can be learned through music. when a person creates music in a certain way, a lot can be learned.
I love radiohead so much that, if i hear their music playing in a public place, i literally will like look around expecting to see them, like i've just bumped into an old friend that i haven't seen in a long time. thats how close it is to my heart.
this new album...is one of their best. I can't wait to get the newspaper package with the artwork, and cd's and everything. it's going to be amazing, it already is, and has been amazing.
...Every single song, is my favorite song....
I LOVE YOU RADIOHEAD.
XOXO
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