'Ignore and think' Part 1 and 2

[James]

Push and try your hardest..........Emotion has left. I don't care anymore. Do as you will. Live out your dreams. Beautiful. Looking from a distance. Too scared to do anything. Pathetic. Worthless. Undeterminable. Lost. You stare through the walls, hoping for your saviour, the answer. A Joke? How can. This. Have an answer. Because of this realisation, you're angry. You walk around, destroying, killing, being, God. It makes you feel like you're in control. When your fate has been decided. They know what you're going to do. You don't solve anything. You're part of the problem. You're part of the system. Cry. No-one cares. Feelings disjointed and broken off.Untie me from this repeat. Continuous drone. Overwhelming boredom. Overwhelming pain. Overwhelming dissapointment. No fun whatsoever. Somehow, this has helped me to realise. But should I realise? Pain overcomes me. Welcomed with glee. A product of an exchange of energy. A product of thought. A product of movement.It helps to understand more clearly how I can replace my own being with the vacant stupidity I adore in you.