5:00 pm

[Nude(Ollie's Big Ideas)]

Its been days that i wanted to writte another blog entry.. main problem is that i dont even know what i want to writte about , hence why its starting as a redundant spiral of nonsense..anyway lets start with a tough that i had in my head for days.. the sense of belonging , of fitting in .. of feel in the right place or where your suppose to be.its been a couple of years that i feel like.. well i dont want to be in this city anymore.. wich leads me to think about moving and then that leads me to think where? and then it leads me to think that i would be better off in europe or Canada cause i always end up meeting really interesting people from those places , people that i can relate to in a deeper level that i do with the people arround me..i dont think its a problem of social "skills" i do have friends and i spent time with them , and in fact i apriciate to be arround them as much as they like my company because im too diferent from the bunch in many ways.. starting with the music and ending with the books i like to read so yea i do laugh i do have greate days but every time i meet someone more like.. well me? i feel like perhaps i was meant to be somewhere else..that and the fact that there is millions of political and social problems that every day make the life less enjoyable here.. an example? well imagine a guy walking in to your office with a machine gun and asking about cell services?for him its normal!! he uses that to protect him self from the other drug gangs... and ofcourse he wants a fast and eficient service..that being said its obvious i want to move to a more peaceful place where i can meet different people.. perhaps its stupid.. perhaps its dreaming too much but hell im 27 and i can do it cause im single and i had no kids that makes me feel i can start all over anywhere i want to.. well not "start over " as my personal life but maybe in my carrear even if it means make a little less money or having a less pompous job than the one i got right now..anyway what are your toughs after reading this? am i insane? ok dont answer that one :P