talk to me

[Darrrynka]

so.. i'm a bit tired of everything. my surroundings is completely happy, and i don't seem to be a person who believe they are sinciere. shame on me.i'm just so-so tired of them. i still try to find people i'd be comforted with, but somehow (!!) they all fall in love with me and..boys and girls and boys again.. in love in 3 days of communication with me. how is that possible?that iritated me first and for some time, yeah.. then i just got used, and then i got tired, when it happened try after try..though all i wanted was just to sit with smbd and talk and drink tea and listen to music and talk again or be silenced. simply. that's all. not being in love with that smbd. somehow another people get it wrong, so i was to stop my searchings. it still seems to me unbelievebly hard how others get to know they've found their soulmates? it's not that i haven't felt it, yeah, i have.. it's about time or.. or patience or persistence or .. how do they know ..oh.. nevermind. i just need to talk. so.. let it be here.all weekend i spent in bed. i was not doing well, i guess it was a food poisoning or smth. lot's of tea and internet and reading.on monday i have classes at the music school. i need to study two songs. they are lovely))i'm happy to study music, to study how to breath, how to sing, i'm dissolving in it comletely.) i guess noone really knows how it is important to me. sometimes i catch myself - i could study it entirely if only there where people who could tell me everything they know about it. i'm a grateful listener.)well, it's all about time or patience or persistence.my laptop is telling me he is going to go to sleep in 32 min. okay.gnightx