Dear Thom,
I couldn't be happier with myself. I have been cheating on my sobriety and it makes me buoyant. I listened to Ok Computer today and really enjoyed making love. It is a beautiful day and the weather is only getting better. Soon, I am off to consult with my tattoo artist about a new piece-I am not sure if it should be on my neck, my chest, or my left calf...but it is going to be an abstract lotus flower in pink and yellow (inspired by the King of Limbs). I am still working on the Tao, A dark dream but I have renamed it Hurt at your prodding and I think it suits the novel better. I took the first three chapters to a writing workshop last night and honestly I think I shocked them with the graphic nature of the material. The one woman said straight up this is not my thing. Which is frustrating not having the right audience, it was as if they couldn't appreciate the prose. And there is a lot of symbolism which they thought was unnecessary, growl. I do not take criticism well.
I mean to correct what I stated in my last letter about my parents. I love my mother and father and family. I instigated a lot of the problems but children do. And they did their best even though I still stand by that fact that they are egotists but everyone is and so am I. In a way. Perhaps, this is why I write to you, it allows me to simply speak my mind like a journal entry that everyone can read and which may have repercussions but for the most part is anonymous. I can be like Thom Yorke, "I want to marry you!" And it will simply hang on the screen like a confession of love for everyone on here to see and comment but mostly not shocking. But some of what I write is shocking and its the truth like how I want to marry you ;)
Anywho,
Love you as always,
Rhael
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