Dear Thom

[Rhael Joy Laramy]

Dear Thom,First of all, Happy Birthday! I haven't spoken to you in a long time and have been ignoring you in my mind where you sit on a throne higher than Jesus. I don't know what to say but that I love you and am glad you are still with me in some stranger than fiction way. I am now the straighter edge but don't go hooray because it is meaningless to anyone but myself. I know this but am proud. I love you Thom. I am not really your lap dog, I am more the size of a doberman pincher (to hell if i got that right like i know dogs pfft). I recently got out of a grouphome and am now living in my own little jail cell called a one bed and bath on the stream side of Chippewa Falls. I would love for you to come and visit. Message me private for the address if you are curious to meet me. I know i am curious to meet you but sadly live on disability and am poor but still maintain that extra something stylish-whether it be considered a dada or fluxus lifestyle i cant guarantee. It is a relief to be talking to you again. I don't feel like i have been living without feeling you touch me in some way. I am listening right now to your music and it lifts a weight off my heart. I also unearthed in old belongings a flash drive containing my entire poetry chapbook and some shortstories i had written like a miracle! A piece of my heart died when i destroyed the remnants of my laptop and flashdrive which contained what i thought were the only saved copies. Happy Day! But out of curiousity do you know of any poetry publications that require a reasonable fee to publish? I don't know of any and am starting to save money but the cheapest ones i have found require like $1200 and i just cannot afford that but i did apply to the Arkansas review. Now that i have my chapbook I have two books of poetry to publish and am 60 pages into a novel that i initially posted the chapters of on this website. Anyway won't chew your ear off but listen for my little voice in your ear tonight because I may be psychotic but i swear you listen...Love,Rhael