Why don't you wanna
Look in my general
Direction
No reply, response
From you
In any form of expression
But maybe this is for the best
The forever waiting
For another time
Where we can speak
Many hours longs
Every minute spent
On loving with you
Don’t rest your heart against one person
Now that you are gone
Who will be my sweet mother now?
I look to the bright cloud in the sky
Looking for a happy feeling
Asking for a clearer meeting
With a higher being
Who could see me
Who would talk to me
Directly
What am I waiting for?
Is it for something to happen
Without my own doing
Forgoing my life of chasing
Things that I don't want
Things I don't understand
You can just sit and observe
Never call out to people you know
Familiar before but currently cold
And maybe it’s okay
To never feel in place
Of the air you displace
I’m supposed to be ambitious
To be all that I can be
From Setiawangsa
To Miri
In every rest I enjoy
I sometimes take the time
To wish upon a higher power
To grant me two wishes
For the two of my sons
One who's nine-to-fiving
In the city bustling be
While another's by the porch
Waiting for a treat
A family quickly running along
The baby suckling humming this song
"Mother oh why is this real
No matter how many times they kill
Variations of men
Variations of steel
Pellets piercing through bodies
Both dead and alive"
Blowing through the underpass of the skybridge
I cannot see, I cannot see
I'm nearly halfway there
All my friends are leaving
The credits kept on rolling
It felt too personal
I think I'm gonna die
I'm nearly halfway there
Gotta open up
For emergency ventilation
I'm choking someone help me
Im scared of watching insanity
Right before me
It feels too real
We live in a society
A smooth flow from life to death
Do not give the disease a name
Give it a cure quick
So that it'll die in vain
In hope you came
In excitement you left
In sadness you returned
The unknown breeds anticipation
For the first few moments
Beyond that, it's free country
Anything that's meant to be wouldn't die out on its own
Your feelings are independent of it
Your feelings mean nothing to it
Not that what you feel is of no worth
It's incomprehensible to it
Realise that it's okay to not matter
Politely decline to be upset
You're so beautiful, so important but in an instance
You no longer bears weight
To my entire being
Exasperated that beliefs are intangible enough to doubt
Taken without proof
The making of a move
Onto an aimless path
With no signs to read aloud
Attention to the content
Attention to the content
Attention to the content
Attention to the insane
Just in a trance
Just in a trance
Just another chance
Fickle minded pretty people
Thank you for the support
Thank you for the support
Something real would turn alive
Switched on by memory
Twist twist the right way round
And open me up
Open me up against the rules
Quickly peek quickly seek
For the moments worth living
Abhor the things you hate
Give in to the spectacular reasons
You would want to stay with me
I would be happy to accommodate
Your needs and wants
If only you'd be happy to subscribe
Attention to the content
Attention to the listener listening in
I don't want to understand you so immediately
I would like to get to know you slowly, slowly
Cuz that would mean more time
To learn about you
And overall I could love all of you
All of time
Running out of sky
Porcelain
Margerine
Marmalade
It's not that I
Wanna feel
The same as you do
But sometimes I
Wanna see
The same as you do
Thanks for inviting
When you don't really want to
I appreciate the
Intention of inclusion
But who are we kidding
I don't look like any
Of you
This is not me
Explaining yet another
Decision that I made
To fuck with you and your day
These circumstances
Just won't allow me to say
That I want
To stay with you
Do you like where you are?
Where the sea is never blue
Do you like what you hear?
Where things are rarely true
Baby you
Don't even know why
You bothered to stay
In a place you desperately
Wanna have it your way
When things so obviously
Never do
Work out for people like you
And we gotta forgot
The things that make us so
Weird and tied in a knot
With strings so poorly sown
Into this
Useless blanket of filth
Early in the morning
I received some big news
The life-changing kind
Especially for me
Everyone is holding me
Everyone is telling me
It's gonna be all alright
But my money is gone
And my cup's filled with tea stains
But I will still choose life
And now, here I am
Death is super real man
But I guess we should
Get on with the show without you
But my money is gone
Cuz I bet everything
On you to come back home
So my money is gone
And I'm left with nothing
But I will still choose life
Nothing is as heavy
As my little face
Buried in my hands
As I cry and cry
Longing for your love
Longing for your hands to
Hold me just one last time
I'm running out of chances
As we speak
Spent on the expenses
Of my own defeat
Take me back
Into line
And I'll behave this time
The falling of an era
Has begun
And you won't be seeing me
With a loaded gun
Just wipe those tears
Right off your face
It's already too late
Mana mungkin sedih kalau tidak mampu merasai
Hidup sementara walaupun sakitku selamanya
Oh patutkah ku teruskan lagi
Perjalanan ku
Aku sudah penat
Aku ingin rehat
Satu hari nanti ku akan
Menghilangkan diri
Aku tak berdaya untuk menempuh dugaan ini
Mungkin sampai sini sahajalah kisah riwayatku
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