God I'm lonely.

[Rhael Joy Laramy]

I'm surrounded by men but not one is mine and all I can think is "God I'm Lonely."  This heart has been through so much and still I can't find no relief.  I don't know who you are or where you came from or what I am or where I came from but I'm here waiting for you to find me.  I'm here waiting for you to hold me.  And all night I lie awake hungry and thirsty and worn out trying to love a stranger.  This empty vessel is broken into shards.  This headache bears fangs and I'm feeling white not red.  I'm a purple dinosaur waiting to turn green and gold.  Pathetic I know.   And then sometimes all I want is a penis to play with, a boy to torture but no one lets me get that close.  This must be Karma for everything and all the hate but can I help it?  I'm waiting for the one.  I believe in true love.  I believe in true beauty.  Hopefully one day I'll meet you in person and we can celebrate finding each other because God I know I'm lonely.