toolish

[Jordan Khajavipour]

yes, yesterday was a silly and somewhat serious attempt.arguable the most real one i've done.not enough pills though. nor booze. nor practice. method. etc.wrote the standard note.on here. real glad no one ended up reading it.despite the grammatical errors it did not convey what I needed to say.oh well.as for now. well I really don't know. my actions around my father need to be considered more. and my mother, well, they always need to be considered.how can a human fear for their child if they fear themselves anyways.east of eden tomorrow evening at cinema fusion in anaheim. i am very excited.i guess yesterday's mixture was too blended, and I did not want to clean up after it.but being a coward is a worse human trait than being a mess.i see more and more why people latch onto another person.connect.this feeling of having just one other person in the world knowing their care for your well being. and you know it. well, it supplies them with the same satisfying feeling as their first sip of coffee in the morning.as for me. i do not drink coffee and i do not connect.but being alone is being different. socially unacceptable.time doesn't exist. more later.this would be the blog post to ignore.x