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[Alese]

I don't feel like me. Somethings changed and I'm not sure I like it. It's a good something, but, I think I can honestly say I felt ..... different before this happened, before I was so, happy. I act like a retard when I'm happy like this. It's the kind of happy that can be bad. If there is one. I dunno, I'm 4am rambling and no one reads this shit cept... Kelly (hi kelly). No, I'm not talking about you. However yeah, you do make me happy :). haha.


ANYYYYYWAY

I feel... far away. I think I just have to keep verbally reconnecting myself in my brain to make sure I'm not losing myself anywhere. I don't want that happening. I'd rather be crazy me than... boring happy boring yawn yawn stupid retard me. This doesn't make any sense, of course, I never make any sense other than in my own head.... (sigh) Oh big exasperated over dramatic sigh about nothing.