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cuando conocí a radiohead

yo solo tenía 14 años..recuerdo tan vivamente el momento en que mi hermano me dijo "quiero que escuches algo"..el es mayor que yo y trataba de sacarme el estado de fanatismo que yo sentia por the beatles hahhaha
juro que ese día cambio mi vida para siempre..radiohead me acompaña en estos 15 años que han pasado..los vi por 1 vez en bs as en el año 2009..jamás en mi vida voy a poder explicar lo que sentí..extasis de ver esa musica tan amada en vivo..
solo sentí felicidad y fascinacion
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rabid dogs.

I sometimes find myself comparing the majority of my classmates with rabid dogs. They're barking - yelling and talking too much when not supposed to. They can't sit still and only have one question to ask the teacher. "When is the next break so I can go out and piss on a tree?" (i.e. go out and smoke, or run around and mess with other people)

It's almost impossible to concentrate here. It's like living in a cage among idiots. I'm one of the few that actually want to learn something but those rabid dogs won't let me. They keep on barking and running around in the classroom, waiting for the next ten minute break.

I get off in an hour. It's gonna be a huge relief to get out of this cage full of rabid dogs. Though tomorrow is another day in this cage, I can still enjoy some silence and calm before I have to go back and lock myself inside this cage again.
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Because you need someone to feed you grapes.

During my first year in college, I sent a very poetic invitation to a boy I liked asking if he would like to join me for a bath, "Because you need someone to feed you grapes". One of my roommates had a disability, so we had the most accessible freshman dorm suite on campus: the only one with an actual tub. Fittingly, I made myself fully accessible to Seth that night.

He arrived and we got right into the bubbles and each other...we ate grapes and cheese and drank champagne. It was a very corny date with many cliches. Well, I suppose getting naked for your first date and conversation is not very cliche, but still...as college dating in the early 80's was concerned...it was filled with romance.

We both had a lovely evening, but neither of us had any interest in continuing the relationship after that. I didn't even bother to seek him out after discovering that he had given me crabs.
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KID A - "10"


Happy Birthday to one of my favorite Radiohead albums of all-time. It's' hard to believe the most anticipated album in Radiohead's career is officially ten-years old today. I still remember the day I listened to it for the first time. The opening piano-riff to Everything In It's Right Place, Thom's looped-voice exclaming "kid-a...kid-a.." followed by Thom's incredible vocals when singing "Everthing... Everything..." Yes, this could as well be the soundtrack to the 21st century. The new millennium. The age of the unknown. For all of us lucky enough to be alive during the turn of the millennium it really is something remarkable on it's own. Radiohead's opening track speaks volumes without saying much. Sometimes songs don't need to be understood in order to connect with you. Everything In It's Right Place connected with me because of it's full of raw-emotion. I could hear Thom's voice inside my head. We love to believe everything IS in it's right place, but this song is something of a reminder of that and not just a statement. The title track that follows Kid A opens with a what sounds like a music-box. Thom's voice is distorted and one can barely understand what he is saying. Again I find myself lost in this sea of the unknown. Where will you lead us? Are we there yet? Can we see the shore up ahead? One can lose themselves while listening to this song. I feel as if I am lifted from the ground and taken over a desolated land of nothingness. Perhaps the album cover congers up the imagery in my head. The cold, lonely place where intelligent life once roamed the earth. We might spot a polar bear on occasion but there really is nothing here to see anymore. The National Anthem is a call to arms. The song gives me a feeling of resistance. Resistance from the way things are. Not necessarily a resistance one thinks about but more of a collective resistance in regards to everything we as humans are currently doing. Perhaps a spiritual one. This coming long after we've almost given up hope. We will follow that distorted bass-riff wherever it leads us. "Everyone around here... is holding on". The horns emphasize the urgency in the song. The climax is where we need to be. Lost among the many sounds of horns coming from all directions. How To Dissappear Completely the fourth track on Kid A is one of the saddest songs in the album. It feels like someone standing in a crowd full of people but feeling completely alone. It feels like someone stuck in a cubicle for eight hours a day. If feels like someone standing on the edge of a bridge somewhere... Contemplating. "This isn't happening"... It feels like someone thinking of a loved one on a rainy day. The song connects with those of us who for some reason find ourselves in places we never imagined we would. Not feeling completely fulfilled with how things turned out in our lives. The following song is Treefingers. This is the bridge. The elevator. The spaceship. Treefingers will transport us all to where we need to go. During the trip we will slightly forget where we were but will accept where we will be. No questions asked. The ambient sounds coming into our ears will soothe and comfort us until we get there. And now: Optimistic. We have arrived. "If you try the best you can... the best you can is good enough" The song sees the world through a microscope. The big picture. Human kind. Evolution. What have we done to get here? Is this good enough? Has history shown us to be of good moral character? Are we monsters? Is Religion good? Are we in a prison? Have we made any progress? Will we end up the same as the dinosaurs? Is there anything we need to be doing in order to avoid human extinction? As long as we are optimistic, everything will be ok. In Limbo is the jungle. The jungle in our minds. We are "lost at sea, don't bother me" "We are living in a fantasy world" Unlike Optimistic, In Limbo leads us to believe we are ALREADY there. We made it. This is the point where we can't make a distinction between the genius and the insane. Perhaps they are one in the same. Next we have Idioteque. "Who's In bunker?" brings imagery of being in-hiding. In exile. Maybe from the rest of the world. From reality? From the scary things. "This is really happening" Yes, the nightmare we were afraid would one day come is actually here. "Take the money and run" the markets have collapsed. Capitalism went the way of the Roman empire. We made it this far, now we need to have "women and children first". The Titanic is going down. This world we find ourselves in has taken us to this point and now we must deal with the consequences. "Here I'm allowed, everything all of the time" Perhaps referring to the money being taken by those so-called "institutions" we all feel are overseeing it on a daily basis. Sadly, nobody is hitting the panic-button this time around. Morning Bell is the place we are trapped-in. The place in our minds we'd rather not be in. We should be happy, but we're not. We have it all. The house. The wife/husband. The white-picket fence. The kids. Or maybe we should "cut the kids in half", not literally but metaphorically by stating that maybe that will make us happier. "Light another candle". Many people light candles in remembrance of their lost loved ones. Others simply light candles when their power is out. We are in the dark. We can't see where we are going. The suburbs. The homeless shelter. The apartment complex. We can all relate being in a place and not being able to see where we will go from there. The Album ends with Motion Picture Soundtrack. The song itself is the perfect ending to such an amazing album. It brings up feelings of being lonely. Broken-hearted. "I think you're crazy.... maybe" The relationship between two lovers. The feeling gets old. We survived. Maybe not just the end of a relationship between two lovers but that between us all... The point where we all part ways. The end of human existence. Meeting people is easy. Saying goodbye on the other hand.... "I will see you in the next life".



Thanks for taking the time to read this. It reads like a random rant with lots of grammar errors because well, it probably is just that. But my honest opinion it is. Images, thoughts and feelings that flow through my head when I listen to this incredible album. I would like to know what Kid A means to you too.


I was listening to this album while I wrote this. You should listen to it today.




Saludos!

-SSA

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writing a blog

My mind likes to wander. It floats off to places of love and fantasy, joy and freedom. Then it goes to hate and pain, sorrow and regret. Then fear and anxiety, depression and loathing. This is where the flaw is, the flaw of the human mind. The emotions created in our thoughts wander away. We become bored with what the problem is, and just want the fix. We trust that we will figure it out in the end, and everything will be okay. We never have the strength to stand up for what should truly be done for this planet. We let humans in office argue over what to do. We need to get away from those that inspire feelings that aren't connected with the tone of the universe and our roles here on Earth.
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We never see what we are truly capable of as people. We let ourselves down everyday. By thinking we're ordinary, because we don't make the rules. We sell ourselves short and sell out to the masses. We trust that someone else has the answer, and will share it with the rest of the group.
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Obsession Pain Killer


Come strip off vague complacency
With skin that shares my blatancy

It's obvious that I don't know you
So why have I so much to show you?

I wish your psychic ability
Was tuned in to my frequency

I'd lead you to a destination
Where I'd break you of your hesitation

I know this feeling can't be real
A strength with which I cannot deal

It's the middle of the night,
Very nearly three
And I can't help wonder,
Did you do this to me

Or did I?





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checkerboard table cloth rippling with the sound of passing freight, bums riding the rails towards who-knows-where, treading carefully on the coals of Hades the teetering totalitarian rule hanging balanced; our hearts yielded to Anubis, let it not be heavy, no, no, against the feather of truth. Oblivion awaits the crestfallen backsliding braggarts on the speeding wagon.
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desensitized looky-loos watching the 24/7news waiting forsomething bad2/happen so to swoon in their paroxysms of feintedInterest.littleLies &big2
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Texts I'll Never Send.

Stay amused.

I'm here in your hand.

I know you know I know.

You know I know you know.

It will happen on Tuesday.

How can you get anything accomplished when you smell that good?

My husband has a gift for you. Really.

With you as my secret, we are both free.

Annie, don't you cry.

Everyone likes me better when I'm happy. Thanks.

I hear your voice. All the time.

I see your smile. Right now.

I hope you want this too.
I sometimes forget how strong my will can be.

Everything is under control. But is it mine or yours right now?

I have more. Always.

Get over here now.

Read me. Tune in and read me!

Today, I'll submit.

I am on your side.

Hold that thought. I need to hear it too.





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