Behind closed eyes lies the truthJumbled and broken in bits and piecesShattered dreams forgottenMemories erasedFamiliar feelings confound the soulFear sears the mind's eyeFaith can release it
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Everything is gray lined in hues of sunsetBeauty and hope are strong but unable to conquer, yetWait and see, wait and seeDisconcerting nothingnessWaiting to see if hope will winHoping that gray doesn't darkenClouds ebb and flow in a sunny stormIndeterminable outcomesChange of plansCourses of outcomeNo options left to exploreWait and see is what to doRelax, is an order that cannot be followedPreparing for the worst is frighteningHoping for the best is more soThe "what-ifs" are intolerableOne can only do what one doesWhat else can be expected
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Blindsided by near tragedyBullied by unanswered questionsElation tempered with doubtToo frightened to be freeBest attempts continue to failEscaping to nothingNothing in returnEmpty or just too full to feelIrreplaceable timeWithering and wastedSearching beyond hopeLooking for the goodHolding on to rainbowsSpontaneity dies slowlyRestless minds swim too fastShades of yellow in a fogNo memory of yesterdayPulled back into nowUnable to process more emotionUnstoppable floodsUndeniable bondsUnwanted feelingsUnconditional everythingEmotional vampirism and parasitic tendenciesLeave nothing behindOverwhelming need to helpBound by limitsPulled by loveTorn apart slowlyUnable to healUnable to dealLeft bone dry and usedNo one to blameNo cycle to breakTaking your sorrowSwallowing your painCarrying your suffering away from youAs you heal I disappear
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Time spent alone doesn't make one lonelyYet loneliness weighs quite heavilyThe thoughts take hold and block the sunCloudy days inhibit all that comes to passLingering thoughts flash like lightningThunder crashes in the mindFocus is lost and suffocation beginsWas that a "tone" in the voice on the phone?Yet to miss a love is normal"Out of sight, out of mind"Only works on the one who is away from homeFor those left behind surrounded by belongingsEncompassed in memories,The moments drone on indefinitelyOnly to pass too quickly upon loves return
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Your face goes numb in the freezing rainYet you can no longer feel the coldFrozen to the spot it happenedLike you are physically unable to moveUnable to seek shelterUnable, or unwillingShattered hopes and startling surprisesThe truth beheld one afternoonThe mind struggles to make sense of itHow could your eyes see what your heart denies?How can your heart believe what your eyes have seen?Any step away from that spot is a step closer to homeCloser to confrontationCloser to the affirmation of painYou remain planted like a tree to the sidewalkThe rain camouflages the tearsThat contrast the hope that you are desperately longing to cling toPeople pass by paying no mindUnconcerned and unfeeling as you wish you were
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Stepping into the lakeFeet get stuck in the sludgeSinking deeper and deeperWater is dark and muddy with the struggle for freedomThe water slowly covers allThe sun gradually eclipsed by the murky waterWhat an unforeseen turn of events while going for a swim
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Lost... lost in the miry clay that gathers at the foot of the mountain after the rain.The sun slowly dries and hardens the outer shell forming the thick protective coating.If one were to stumble across the stone the soft and very human core would be invisible.So eager to attack that mountain, yet the torrential downpour that plagued that journey could not have been predicted.One slip and even the greatest will fall.One slip and forever lost.Barricaded from the warmth of the sun within the cold, dark casing.Awaiting another storm, hoping to soften enough to crack the surface.Looking to escape the safety of the carapace.Hoping all is reversible and nothing lasts forever.
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So much locked within bubbling at the surfacePinholes of strain attempt to release pressureIts immensity can't be touched by a million such holesDesire to discard the cloak grows with every breathBut the fear of being unveiled and naked prevents itAs the molehills burn and the fires are extinguishedMountains emerge in silence, born of the forgotten ashesSmoldering embers give rise to the unfathomableGargantuan by comparison and seemingly unstoppableCan such enormity be reigned in,Or will trying be a harsh lesson in futility?Never give up or knowing when to do soHolding tightly or letting goTo analyze or forgetNo clear cut paths in the forest of self-destruction
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Straight from the hipAn honest wordNo lies from still lipsSteely eyes and vacant staresThe sound fades awayCarried by the windto someone else's earsSomeone else's heartMisconstrued and half-heardYet wholly bruisedWords so clearYet seemingly transparentUninterested partiesMake empty promisesMean what is saidFor words can crumble the foundation
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Memories of ballerina dreams, tap shoes, and tightsA child long since grownA woman in waitingForever fused to perfectionIn a broken mindSelf-induced pressure cooks the mindWhat is expected of you,Is not what you expect from yourselfYou think we think you're perfectYou have misjudgedyou have laid blame for your mistakesyou are still lovedHow can you be who you are,When you don't trust that we love whoever you becomeBad influences and fitting in.People are overratedLoved onceLoved alwaysWe are all but humanimperfect by designGive us a chance to understandyou'd be surprised
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Slipping further awayDeeper into the darknessBad choices and wrong turnsWeigh the anchor speeding descentPlastic smiles and crocodile tearsWhich is the mask?Where does the truth lie?Reaching down to offer a reprieveThere is no hand to graspHelpless, watchingTears burning as the light fades to nothingWhere is the fire that lit you from within?If you reach for me,I will always be there
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Fireballs of realization burn through to the soulSinged memories of liesSmoke filled sighs of reliefThe embers remain...smoldering deep withinBurning cheeks with the ensuing tearsTrust, so fragile is now crackedMolten bile churns to the surfaceShould it eat its way through or be suppressed?Can it be repaired or must it be rebuilt?Is it even worth the trouble?Don't speak the wordsLies speed destructionWhich will win in the fight to remain?The lies of the past and the truth of the present,Or the truth of the past and the lies of the present.All truth or all lies is just too easyPerhaps it is time that this is someone else's fight
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The days continue as if nothing ever happenedNothing has changed and no one has noticedA question of reality and a loose grip on sanityMomentary sadness and lethargic tendenciesOthers see what they want and believe the same wayLack of understanding or inadequate explanationsThey yield the same resultsNo help for the helplessBroken angels cannot fly, yet they are angels just the samePerfection is not sought for us by othersIt is not expected nor can it beChange will find a home everywhereThough it is not always what is wantedGrowth is painful more often than notPerhaps it is that very pain that feeds the growth itselfWhatever the experience, whatever the causeOnce loved truly, loved foreverTrust in those who remain
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Half an hour in darknessTurns into three in a heartbeatSilent but for the creakingThe wind howls and whispers its secretsNaked eyes of nothing, eternally watchingSounds amplified with closed eyesScreaming sounds of nature barring sleep from taking holdEluding its clutches and being yanked into the presentBy a branch against the window or a soft moan in the wallsShadows of memories of childhood nightmares scuttle across the sleepy mindWorn out nerves lead the way back to irrational dreamsFoggy movements of misshapen nothingGive way to muted colors of warmthThe wind whistles with icy breathThe mind wraps you in a warm blanket and slowly it becomes tomorrow
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A crash and a shatterThe floor fallsSolid ground turned permeableLost footing brings skinned kneesNothing to tether toNothing to graspSlowly sinkingCovered eyes see no evilAll is wellCan't blink away an uncertain futureCan't wish away the fearChange is always good,When the now is badSomething's got to giveA better life for allSomething worth trying for
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Thoughts of tall grassy fields full of sunflowersWarm sun dancing through the swiftly moving cloudsWildflowers sprinkled across the meadow like confettiButterflies scatter as you passFilling the surroundings with movement and beautyThe tickling wings flutter by and a smile emergesIt cannot be suppressed, like that of a child
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The line of your jawThe curve of your neckThe slightest pout in the softest lipsThere is something exceptional in the parts of youThe way your eyes change with your moodThe way your smile softens, everythingThe way you get nervous...stillYou move meThe thought of you tickles meThe reality of you gives me hopeThe way you look at meAll that is good in me is in your eyes
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Tattered and torn the curtains sway in the windThe old boards moan and creak, cobwebs with forgotten mealsImages of times long past, with fresh paint and lovingly cared forHow beautiful it was, way back whenNow, it's pain so evident that it saddens onlookersThe potential for greatness still lingers in the woodIn the cracked and broken windows of the old abandoned house, I see myself reflected
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Tethered by currents of electricityConnected yet somehow unawareBlind to the the evidence of symbiosisSeparate yet equal, repeats in thoughtPulled along by invisible linesGuided by unseen boundariesSubconsciously awareNever really knowing what's going onLike minds gatherYet, no one speaksSilent wails of the awkwardFight hard against wanting to fleeEmpty eyes burn holesTurning the helpless to stoneFreezing the mind with self consciousnessNothing happened to cause the changePower to the people?Empower yourselfTake the reignsHead toward the sunset
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Don't want to cryBut it can't be helpedAll semblance of control is lostMemories are overwhelmingThe good is amazingBlessings duly countedSo far away from a planned pathGuided by the unknown to the presentGifted in so many waysWhat is lacking is irrelevantIt is all in the mindThere is much love in this placeThere is just enough of everythingWarm and happyNever alone and endless "sugars"Not perfect, never perfectBut perfect enough for me
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