Am I worrying about some societal mores here, or fearing that I will impulsively want to disregard a few rules for the thrill of being part of something new. Over the years, I have been 100% faithful, and I plan to stay that way. But there have always been those times when I have enjoyed a few rather shameless public displays of flirtation--like dancing with a friend at a party, knowing that some real passion has flared between us that could not have been invisible to others...that sort of thing. In the end, it has always been my husband who has benefited from my libidinous nature. This is different because it is not in front of anyone else. No witnesses.
I know I need to keep it where it is right now. At work. Once a week. Where no other impulses can get in the way. Also, I would not want to give him the wrong impression. Though if nothing else, I am sure he is surprised and maybe even a bit amused at the idea, if it has occurred to him--and yes, I think it has. Even if I am old enough to be...on my goddess! I can't even say it! I guess, I'll just keep bringing home the benefits...
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WOW...that was less than a month ago and I have moved so far beyond worrying about mores! That was a crazily oversimplified and inappropriate way to see it. It is so outside of that societal realm...
