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But I'm a crepe
On a window
What the hell am I doing here ?
I don't belong here...
To wake up on a burning stump
Holding the smoking wheel
Of the knife in a field of crutches
Where your paper gown trembles
At the end of a drove that files
Beneath the shadow of the dice
Where the great shepherd rakes
The head of a fly into the ash
Of his drum, humming the song
Of the vale and a million boots.
here's an invite!
I love Radiohead.
I love Radiohead.
I love the way your music makes me forget.
I love the the way your music makes me think.
I love the way you music makes me feel.
I love the way your music silences the noise.
The endless pitter patter.
The dreary melodrama of everyday life.
I love where you music takes me.
I love how it slows my heart.
The calm.
A soft subtle love with a gentle kiss.
A deep look with a smile.
A soft touch.
I love Radiohead.
c
Happy to be here
Hello everyone! So this is a follow-up post about the white vinyl edition of AMSP. I received the edition in the mail last Wednesday and I must say; it is truly worth getting! The tangible artwork, opaque white vinyl, and quality of the sound all contributes to this limited issue being a work of art itself! I strongly suggest getting it while there are still some left! Discogs.com reports that only 123 are left so if you want it: now is the time!
Here is the link again if you are interested:
http://www.bullmoose.com/p/22654850/radiohead-moon-shaped-pool-white-vinyl-2lp
I'm not sure what I'm looking for. Maybe just a void to yell my chaos at in hopes that it will curl itself into some sense. I move sluggishly through life, immune to pleasure, my brow permanently furrowed in some nameless anguish. I give myself a headache from scowling too much. I'm not sure what's wrong, everything and nothing all at the same time perhaps. It doesn't really matter, I will die someday and all this pain will mean nothing. Every time I try to strive for something greater, my stupid brain comes along and dumps poison all over it and turns it into decay.
I remember myself a year ago, so hopeful and optimistic and naive. I feel like a shadow of her. I can't seem to do anything these days. I open my email and stare blankly at the screen until the words all squish together in a haze of responsibilities and obligations and guilt. 20 minutes of that is enough to make me want to curl up in bed and sleep for the rest of the day.
It's easier to cut and run and cut and run and cut and run than to deal with the pile of shit I leave in my wake everywhere I go. Yes I suppose I should fix myself, or I could spiral deeper downward in search of a purer and more distilled form of torture. At least maybe then I'll have something to write about, haha haha.
I hope nobody is reading this but I doubt it. Actually I guess I do hope someone is reading this. I wouldn't push it on anyone but if they happened to come across it I wouldn't mind. I found out my old roommate came across my journals while we were living together and took pictures of them so he could read them at his leisure. Not sure how to feel about that but I guess now all the cats are out of the bag and I can't pretend I'm not a depraved and heartless monster anymore. I've quarantined myself so I won't inflict me on anybody else. I've placed traps and constructed walls so nobody will get in.