I think.. I don’t have a need anymore to feel like I want to be a boy. For some reasons I wish I was.. or.. could be a pretty young man. But they were just some unstable moments in my life and now they are gone. I’m okay about being a girl. What a surprising thought.
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This was a difficult film to watch.The eight year old son of a concentration camp commander, who has no idea of the horrors that his country is inflicting on the Jewish people, befriends a boy in the camp. This friendship proves solid in the end with unexpected results.David Thewlis plays the Commandant as cold and determined. His character tries to justify his job as essential for the Fatherland, but all the Nazi crap is balanced, probably not too realistically, by his wife's horror when she realizes what is going on on her doorstep and by his mother's refusal to visit.This was put down to 'illness', but was because she was opposed to the regime.The film is gripping and at times you feel yourself holding your breath - I think everyone in cinema was; there was complete silence for most of the film and for many minutes afterwards. The focus is on the family and the son, Bruno, who is trying to make sense of what is happening. His innocence is crushed a little at a time, but he fails to grasp the full horror of what is happening on what he thinks is a 'farm' nearby; not many people at the time knew of the real purpose of the 'shower rooms' or what was being burned in the camps.Asa Butterfield as Bruno and Jack Scanlon as Schmuel give good performances as the boys, very natural and if the film wasn't so chilling in subject matter you might say charming.Mark Herman directs the film in an understated way that allows the story to unfold. The characters are not forced into good/bad, pigeonholes but have depth, which doesn't seem forced upon us, but allows for a glimpse into how the tragedy of the Holocaust came about and was sustained.As I said a difficult film to watch, but well worth it.
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Too wired to sleepToo tired to functionFoggy days and sleepless nightsWhite noise nightmaresCareless slips of the tongueJagged expressionsFaceless othersGliding by outside yourself
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So.... here are my 15 steps to watch Radiohead for first time...1- Escuchar la influencia musical de Luis - Hear the Luis's musical influence2- Despertar en la madrugada a escuchar Kid A por primera vez en MTV -Wake up to hear for first time Kid A in MTV late at night3- Escuchar todo el tiempo Radiohead - Hear Radiohead all the time4- Creer un rumor sobre una visita de Radiohead a México - Believe in a rumor that Radiohead is coming to Mexico5- Soñar con ver a Radiohead - Dream about watch a Radiohead Concert6- Sacar la VISA americana - Have an american Visa7- Conocer a alguien que también ama a Radiohead y está algo loco8- Estudiar una ingeniería y trabajar en Honda - Study an engineering and work in Honda9- Decidir ir a la Gira in Rainbows y revisar las fechas - Decide go to the In Rainbows tour and review the dates.10- Invitar a mi hermano a unos boletos para el concierto - Invite my brother a concert tickets11- Comprar los boletos del concierto - Buy concerts tickets12- Comprar un boleto de Avion - Buy an airplane ticket13- Sacar mi pasaporte - Have a passport14- Esperar unos meses para viajar a NY - Wait a few months to travel to NY15- Esperar unos minutos entre la multitud para que comienze - Wait a few minutes between the crowd until the concert begin.
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New to me anyway. They're called Home Video. :P I'm excited since I rarely, rarely ever discover a new band that I like. Unfortunately most music nowadays has changed far from my taste. I hear the occasional new song I like, but rarely a band. The only time I usually like something new on the radio is if its from one of my old bands I already know.Anyways, (so far at least) I think I'm really going to like them. A few influences:The Cure, Smashing Pumpkins, Depeche Mode, Björk, Massive Attack, Brian Eno, Radiohead, The Cocteau Twins, Boards of Canada, My Bloody Valentine, Nine Inch Nails, PortisheadAnd by the way - I'm really excited that the Verve is back now. I need to go get that new album...
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IMPROBABLES NOCHESViernes 3 de octubrea las 22:3hs.Casa del SurAv. Díaz Vélez 4271$10Dos casas, muchas habitaciones para explorar,vení y descubrí infinitos mundosFlor IN LIMBO Dance performanceMusic: Radiohead, KID Ahttp://improbablesnoches.blogspot.com/
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The homeless-santa-claus excuse of a professor was on a role once again today for our micro lab. With characteristic patronizing non-answers, we learned today that all of the processes we have been going through in the last three or four labs - about 9-12 hours of time - we have to all come into the lab sometime this weekend and do all those processes together at once on our individual unknown samples now.Okay, so I don't fancy driving an hour up to the campus on my weekend when I have a ton of other classes to attend to and spending the majority of my day at the lab to get this done (it will probably take about 8 hours), but alright. That I don't like, but can deal with.Here's the problem.He still hasn't really explained to us what exactly we HAVE been doing with the last three or four labs. If he couldn't give us straight answers then - how are we supposed to do this alone with our own samples? And there's the one conversion thing that we've never done before, but somehow or another we're supposed to come up with this after doing all of our dilutions, spread plates, readings, etc. Don't know what it is! But we're supposed to do it. Also there's something else we did today...with these reddish samples. We took readings. Don't ask me why.And had we not mentioned that we needed all the many supplies for the series of tests we'll do over the weekend, he probably would have forgotten to get and leave it all out!Whatever it is we figure out to do this weekend, we're supposed to do a write up on it too for next week. And the exam! It still had some pretty left field questions and things that we never went over - but it was better than the last one! I think....that means, in other words, maybe the class just failed this time instead of really failed.
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I have rarely felt such ill will towards someone as with my current so-called "professor". It would be nice if he would actually take the time out of his day to TEACH US. This bastard is setting us up to fail - as I've gathered a bit of history about him from other students and faculty over the past few weeks, I've found that the only reason anyone makes it in his class is because he curves. Yes, I know many professors curve - but I don't just mean a bit - I mean a HUGE curve.This smart ass "forgets" to tell us things all the time, and good luck trying to get him to answer a question. He just cost everyone in our labs an assignment. We're supposed to turn in this graph tomorrow, but there's a section no one's been able to figure out what it meant. We couldn't really ever get a clear answer on WHAT exactly we were supposed to be doing. I just figured it out, but its too late now, we're all screwed. He kind of forgot to mention a step in the process vital to creating the chart.My concerns have almost always been rather I will get an A or a B+ in a class - I'm a focused, dedicated student. I have never in my life worried about passing a class.To top it all off, we nursing students are missing the typical classes that a biology student taking the course (about 3 or 4 out of about 70 students) would have, so we're completely lost from the get go. This professor also KNOWS that we don't have the general biology and chemistry classes that a bio student does. The thing is - even the biology students are having a hard time getting a straight answers out of him.I've been cultivating a deep and thriving hatred for this man over the past few weeks, and I still have two months left with him. .
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Today I've been fleeing from one site to another attempting to find temporary housing in Ottawa, Canada this spring. The entire endeavor has been pretty successful so far, but it is not without hiccups and minor roadblocks.As I was describing my current state of being to a friend, I used the analogy of juggling. I have all these bits and pieces of my life that have to be held in a precise balance or else if one goes, well all the other are thus affected. Maybe that's more of a dominos scenario... hmm... either way, the point has been made. So I'm tossing ideas around, solutions are being sifted and I'm figuring out what will work, what might work and what definitely will not work at all.Amidst one theoretical of the afternoon, I found myself staring at all the loans I have that are currently in grace thanks to my lovely undergraduate education. The numbers are a bit scary, but not impenetrable. That's before I put them together and add in the interest over the course of some formulaic payment plan yet to be decided upon. Yes, it's at that moment that I freeze. Stare. And begin creating magnificent theatrical displays of anger and helplessness in my mind. Oh, don't think for a second that I would literally start screaming... that's just a bit much. But I often feel like screaming into a pillow at least... that's reasonable, no?Now, lump onto this the current economy and the fact that I'm competing with people who already have masters degrees, I'm feeling slightly tiny. I have a positive outlook and believe that if handled correctly, the loans will eventually be paid back with (I hope) little pain and sadness. The one thing that I really loathe, however, is not the fact I had to take out loans (although I don't enjoy them), or that I don't currently have a job (although I'm looking, have applied to many and now have an internship so far), but the fact that I have to pay so much more money simply because of the interest accrued.This seems unfair.It was only for my education. An education that would help me put money back into the now flailing economy. Why should I be penalized for trying to make my life better? This is the problem. There is nearly no incentive for students to go to college. It's becoming increasingly difficult to get a job post-graduation. The jobs that are available now need at least 1-2 years of experience (or more in some cases) and/or require advanced degrees beyond the bachelors level. In addition to sky-rocketing tuition, we find ourselves having to go back to school, take multiple jobs and/or work longer hours, in order to attain the type of life that was propelled to us for years. Yet, we're being penalized all the while. I will have to pay nearly double what I took out thanks to the interest that (might, unless I change it up...I'm working on it) will inevitably mount on my loans.Something is not right here. Are we really that envious of creating a class of uneducated and unhappy individuals that education will become (once more) only a thing that a minority will be able to afford?Maybe that last part was extreme, but ... sigh.
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TO ACHIEVE HAPPINESSlook forwards to something that doesn't exist, or a time a thousand years in the future. focus on it. think of how wonderful and exciting it will be. let it become a vague, warm point on your horizon to strive for. its why children are so happy. their secret is out. our secret is out. your secrets are our secrets. hold it close, and think of it often.
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Posted by PrttyBrd on September 30, 2008 at 8:00pm
Ever-changing plansClueless frustrationHe said, she saidNot really caring either wayYour frustration sounds like condescensionAnd feels like crapMy imitation confidenceShatters at the thought of your barbed words
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Posted by PrttyBrd on September 19, 2008 at 7:00pm
So much to do, yet drawn to the ethereal glow. Behind closed doors it beckons, calling out in silence. Trying to walk past, is an exercise in futility.Darn the computer age.
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Posted by PrttyBrd on September 19, 2008 at 7:00pm
Try to understand. Cranky is a mood. It’s not angry or upset. It’s irrational and unthinking. It is unbridled ugly. And it is only temporary. You cannot reason with cranky. You just let it run its course. Unfortunately, words wound and perceptions are fragile. Proceed with caution.
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Posted by PrttyBrd on September 19, 2008 at 7:00pm
Blowing breezesRip leaves from branches prematurelyThe air is cooledBy the brush of a stormThe world seems so perfectBlue skies and soft cloudsThe breeze calms the sunNice to be outsideIt feels like a play dayA day to sit and feel the breeze on your faceTo watch in awe at the glorious world around youThe many hues of green and brown and blueThe amazing complexity of a flower, any flowerToday God is happy
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Posted by PrttyBrd on September 19, 2008 at 6:30pm
Living with the glimpses of Satan that bubble to the surface from so deep within that it almost doesn’t really exist. That is what is excruciating, the aftermath of stupidity, the fear of yourself.
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