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Why don't you wanna

Look in my general

Direction

No reply, response

From you

In any form of expression

But maybe this is for the best

The forever waiting

For another time

Where we can speak

Many hours longs

Every minute spent

On loving with you

Don’t rest your heart against one person

Now that you are gone

Who will be my sweet mother now?

I look to the bright cloud in the sky

Looking for a happy feeling

Asking for a clearer meeting

With a higher being

Who could see me

Who would talk to me

Directly

What am I waiting for?

Is it for something to happen

Without my own doing

Forgoing my life of chasing

Things that I don't want

Things I don't understand

You can just sit and observe

Never call out to people you know

Familiar before but currently cold

And maybe it’s okay

To never feel in place

Of the air you displace

I’m supposed to be ambitious

To be all that I can be

From Setiawangsa

To Miri

In every rest I enjoy

I sometimes take the time

To wish upon a higher power

To grant me two wishes

For the two of my sons

One who's nine-to-fiving

In the city bustling be

While another's by the porch

Waiting for a treat

A family quickly running along

The baby suckling humming this song

"Mother oh why is this real

No matter how many times they kill

Variations of men

Variations of steel

Pellets piercing through bodies

Both dead and alive"

Blowing through the underpass of the skybridge

I cannot see, I cannot see

I'm nearly halfway there

All my friends are leaving

The credits kept on rolling

It felt too personal

I think I'm gonna die

I'm nearly halfway there

Gotta open up

For emergency ventilation

I'm choking someone help me

Im scared of watching insanity

Right before me

It feels too real

We live in a society

A smooth flow from life to death

Do not give the disease a name

Give it a cure quick

So that it'll die in vain

In hope you came

In excitement you left

In sadness you returned

The unknown breeds anticipation

For the first few moments

Beyond that, it's free country

Anything that's meant to be wouldn't die out on its own

Your feelings are independent of it

Your feelings mean nothing to it

Not that what you feel is of no worth

It's incomprehensible to it

Realise that it's okay to not matter

Politely decline to be upset

You're so beautiful, so important but in an instance

You no longer bears weight

To my entire being

Exasperated that beliefs are intangible enough to doubt

Taken without proof

The making of a move

Onto an aimless path

With no signs to read aloud

Attention to the content

Attention to the content

Attention to the content

Attention to the insane

Just in a trance

Just in a trance

Just another chance

Fickle minded pretty people

Thank you for the support

Thank you for the support

Something real would turn alive

Switched on by memory

Twist twist the right way round

And open me up

Open me up against the rules

Quickly peek quickly seek

For the moments worth living

Abhor the things you hate

Give in to the spectacular reasons

You would want to stay with me

I would be happy to accommodate

Your needs and wants

If only you'd be happy to subscribe

Attention to the content

Attention to the listener listening in

I don't want to understand you so immediately

I would like to get to know you slowly, slowly

Cuz that would mean more time

To learn about you

And overall I could love all of you

All of time

Running out of sky

Porcelain

Margerine

Marmalade

It's not that I

Wanna feel

The same as you do

But sometimes I

Wanna see

The same as you do

Thanks for inviting

When you don't really want to

I appreciate the

Intention of inclusion

But who are we kidding

I don't look like any

Of you

This is not me

Explaining yet another

Decision that I made

To fuck with you and your day

These circumstances

Just won't allow me to say

That I want

To stay with you

Do you like where you are?

Where the sea is never blue

Do you like what you hear?

Where things are rarely true

Baby you

Don't even know why

You bothered to stay

In a place you desperately

Wanna have it your way

When things so obviously

Never do

Work out for people like you

And we gotta forgot

The things that make us so

Weird and tied in a knot

With strings so poorly sown

Into this

Useless blanket of filth

Early in the morning

I received some big news

The life-changing kind

Especially for me

Everyone is holding me

Everyone is telling me

It's gonna be all alright

But my money is gone

And my cup's filled with tea stains

But I will still choose life

And now, here I am

Death is super real man

But I guess we should

Get on with the show without you

But my money is gone

Cuz I bet everything

On you to come back home

So my money is gone

And I'm left with nothing

But I will still choose life

Nothing is as heavy

As my little face

Buried in my hands

As I cry and cry

Longing for your love

Longing for your hands to

Hold me just one last time

I'm running out of chances

As we speak

Spent on the expenses

Of my own defeat

Take me back

Into line

And I'll behave this time

The falling of an era

Has begun

And you won't be seeing me

With a loaded gun

Just wipe those tears

Right off your face

It's already too late

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